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先のこと

今日、学校ないと思って、生協もないと思って、友達と朝6時くらいまでおきてたら、不意打ちで普通に学校があって、バイトには1時間遅れて出勤、、、すいません↓

それから、今日は物件を見にいくつもりだったんだけど、
どうも雪も多いしやめようかなーって思ってたら、、、。

俺のお慕い申し上げているT先生が珍しく生協へ!!!
もち話かけにいって、いろいろと話をしてると、
研究室においでさ、っと誘ってくださったので、もちGO★
それから、将来どうしたらいいか、を相談に乗っていただく。
ホンマ、若いのにしっかりしてる、っていうと失礼だけど、
言ってることが偉そうじゃなくて、しかも納得できる。
まさに、Mr.Jの日本人版、みたいな存在感。

いろいろと助言をもらった。
どうも俺は人に言われたことをうのみにするたちで
特に信頼してる人、尊敬してる人だとその傾向が強い。

でもとりあえず、今何をしていいのかもさっぱりわかってなかった俺にとっては本当にありがたい話だった。不動産の人には時間過ぎてからしか連絡できなくて申し訳なかったけど、本当にありがたかった。

ってことで、さっそく今日から本を一冊とりあえず読むことに。

もともと本を読むのは大変苦手な俺だけど、
もういつまでも足踏みしてられないから、
動き出そうと思います。
もしあかんかったら、変えたらいいやん、って楽天的じゃなくて、ホンマに思うから。
いつまでも怖がっててなんもできひんほうがかっこわるいから。

ってなわけで、少しだけ前進。

due to heavy snowfall last night on the top of the mountain,
i thought we didnt have class today.
and that led me to stay up until 6 am this morning.
and it turned out that we had a class normally today.
and in turn i was late for my baito 1 hr ... sorry....

i was supposed to go to see some rooms for next semester
since i have to move out from AP house.
BUT i didnt feel like doing so.
heavy snow even pretened me from going down this
mountain... by bus... which costs me a lot.

at that time, luckly enough to meet my dear prof.
i havent seen him long time and we talked about my future
little bit at coop. then he invited me to his room, and we
continued to talk and talk.
it was such a good time for me and good timing, since i didnt
know what to do.
he gave me a lot of critical thought and ideas, at the same
time he gave me a lot of encourages and energy.
he was too good for his age, but it created such a good
feeling and atmosphere in which i could spend
wonderful time with him.
i admire him so much, respect him as much as i do for Mr.J.
he is like Japanese version of Mr.J.

and i started to read a book written by APU prof.
it hopefully gives me a right to follow, or at least, it becomes
my turning point under this bad mood in which i was recently.

i still donno what to do and actually really dont like to
read the books, but i cannot say 'no' to everything.
i have to take action even it will not be my final decision.
i think i can change anytime if i dont like it.
it might be very difficult, or crucial, but i have to take
courage to go forward.
isnt it more stupid and uncool not trying to do any
before actually trying to do some?

anywayz:
one step to next stage, it will be.
[PR]
by canadian_dreaming | 2005-12-13 20:47 | kokoro no tizu
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