boku-no-kokoro-no-sekai-tizu2008-12-05T15:15:40+09:00canadian_dreaming感じたことも考えたことも、嫌なこともいいことも、将来のことも夢のことも、なんでも書きますかいてきます、俺の世界地図ができる日まで。Excite Blogquit my jobhttp://masaharu84.exblog.jp/10267715/2008-12-05T15:14:46+09:002008-12-05T15:15:40+09:002008-12-05T15:15:40+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
I am still not sure if it was correct dicision or not yet,
and maybe I can only know the answer few years later.
During past 2 weeks,
I have enjoyed myself so much.
I hadnt come back home and stayed frineds places,
drunk every night and played badminton almost everyday,
and had so many chat with friends.
Now, its December,
and it is time for me to take an action.
I havent thought of what I want to do yet,
and I am really not sure what I want to do.
I am very much lost right now,
and I am very much ... confused.
I am in the very difficult time right now.
However,
I hope that I will find my way to persue,
and I hope that I will enjoy my life again someday.
and for that day,
I need to face to me,
even though it is the very crucial and tough thing to do.
Do you like yourself?]]>大学祭http://masaharu84.exblog.jp/10056867/2008-11-02T23:34:36+09:002008-11-02T23:35:23+09:002008-11-02T23:35:23+09:00canadian_dreaming未分類
This weekend, the university near my house held its festival. This festival is something that I have so much memories of since I have been it from when I was a elementary student. The scenery and people are different from what in my memories, but I still recall the time I spent here. This festival is something that remind me of one of my happy time, when I didnt pay any attention to future. I just enjoyed the time I was at, and tomorrow was what I need to think when tomorrow comes.
Now, after told my bosses and human resource department my quiting job, I only need to talk about when to quit and the procedure that I need to take. Next Wednesday I will tell my quit to people in my department and people I am related in terms of business. This would be the hardest for me... and I am really nervous of doing it, but I am quite sure that this is what I need to do. I need to overcome this crucial moment because I am going to quit not becuase of the company but because of my selfishness.
I am just so stressful recently because of this and other personal stuff... could not enjoy this weekend that much actually, but I only have 2 more weeks to go, and in terms of business day, it is only 9 days that I need to go to company. Considering all the fact, all guilty belongs to me, and I am the only person who needs to think sorry, and other people have a right to get angry against me...
well, 2 weeks would be long but may not be that long as I think. Doing my job as much as I can and say good-bye to people there!!!]]>手帳http://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9969405/2008-10-20T21:31:00+09:002008-10-20T21:39:44+09:002008-10-20T21:32:06+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
2008年の10月、つまり今月から始まる新しい日記。
俺の誕生月、10月。24歳になった10月。
そして会社を辞めると決意した10月。
And lastly,
I got a message book from friends of badminton club in Matsudo!!
It was full of pics and message cards, wrapped by handmade cover. The cover's taste is very much my taste, so I was very happy to have it.
Yesterday I went to the club to give them thank you cards. I printed out some pictures which I took b4 and on the back wrote some messages.
well,
actually there was a story about this present. Since few weeks b4, I wasnt feeling good at this club. there was nothing big trouble but inside me there were several matters regarding of this club and people there. Therefore, I was feeling very strange and didnt know what to act, but as an adult (well i dont know if i actually belong to so-called adult or not) I should not act like... i should not show my feeling. still, there are several friends there and i really like them, so i was very happy to have it.
]]>My Bday2http://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9921648/2008-10-13T22:02:03+09:002008-10-13T22:02:47+09:002008-10-13T22:02:47+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
The picture is what he gave me on that day. As you can see, surprisingly enough that this toothpaste is made from cray!!! When I tried this for the first time on the next day, it tasted very much cray (tho I have never eaten it)!!!
On the next day, again with him, I watched the movie "Yogisha X no Kenshin". This movie is now famous since the TV drama got so much popularity.
The movie was very well, with many sadnesses and warmnesses. It was so good that I bought a book of it on my way home!!!
]]>My Bday!!http://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9905288/2008-10-11T14:38:00+09:002008-10-11T14:39:26+09:002008-10-11T14:38:52+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
and my kouhai gave me a surprise cake to me the other day!!!
It was so surprising that she actually remembered my Bday and whats more gave me a present to me!!! Never thought that she cared of me!!!
anyways,
thanks so much ne~~~
and thank you everyone giving me a message!!
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I was kinda busy recently with working and thinking about my future, as well as having irritated of my life.
Last weekend, 2 big things ended.
One: my friends' wedding party project
Two: badminton double tournament
ONE: Wedding party project
This is actually very much fun event happening to me recently.
I have been to a badminton club when I was a high school student. and it was all of a sudden that we knew that two of the members in that badminton club decided to get married!! It was so surprising and at the same time so happy thing, so I decided to make it big event!!
Me and some friends decided to make a movie message, so I was very busy with organizing it. It was actually very time-consuming and tough, with many people not replying to email or phone-call. However, I needed to respect their life too. I was busy with my work and my future, but I spared some time for celebrating two, so I wanted other team members to spare some time too, but it was not shared with few people, and I needed to accept it. This was very difficult for me because we were very close at the time we practiced badminton together and I didnt want to say that we become "adult" that prevents us from gathering again.
anyway,
the day came and the movie message completed just the morning of that day. I was so exausted with making one, but when i saw their faces, I was just so happy and satisfied with. I was just like ... oh, I did good job!!! nothing to regret!! even though I had a bit difficult time, still having shining smiles brought me to the happy world.
TWO: Badminton doubles tournament
I joined a badminton club in Matsudo which my friends played badminton at in April. At first I really enjoyed there and I was very very relaxing. However, time after time, somewhat I really felt burden on me, and I became dislike people there. Maybe it was because I am still too childish, or maybe because my heart is too small, but in any reasons, I cannot enjoy myself anymore there. and there is no reason for me to be there with so much stress. I am welcome to be said that I am just selfish. Its okie now, I just do not care. I just need to care of myself now. I have no space except thinking about myself, my future and my good precious friends.
so now, I am a bit released from many troubles. and i want to enjoy my work and want to spare time to think of myself.]]>雨に唄えば♪http://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9464011/2008-08-16T18:50:07+09:002008-08-16T18:50:37+09:002008-08-16T18:50:37+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
でも今度の月曜日も有給いただいてるんで、また少しお休みが長めです。
ってのは、ホントは、友達と山中湖いくはずだったんだけど、
俺が計画的じゃなくて、しかも連絡とってなかったからいけなくなってしまい。
少し反省。気遣わせてsorry ne.
anywayz,
weekend again!!!
so.... badminton!!!
today I went to the high school again and played badminton with my frds.
this time, the members were a bit different from the last time.
i asked one of my best frds and his kouhai to come.
まーだから、いっつも練習にいってる松戸のメンバーと、高校の時に一緒に練習にいってたまぶだちとーあとそいつの高校の後輩、っていう。
まーでも、今日実は同期と東京で飲んで終電で帰宅してから地元のつれから連絡がきてジョナサンでだべってたから、i only slept 4 hrs... i somehow could wake up at 9:30 in morning, did nothing much and went to the school.
先週の週末は初めての有給でした。
paid holidays... sounded so nice to me!!
but what should i do during 4 holidays???
1日目>>>
4 days were not enough long to travel for me... I need at least a week for travelling!!!
なので、じゃあどうしよう、って考えた結果、
いつもの土日じゃ次の日のこと考えて出来ない事をしよう、って思ったわけです。
but last time I went to the beach,
next day I had a fever and felt so bad.
だから今回は海にいくのはちょっとやめよう、ってことで。
久し振りに高校のバドミントンの練習にいってきたわけです!
It was soooo much fun!!!
I took some of my badminton friends with me to the school, だからなんか高校の部活にみんなで参加してて、楽しかったわけ。でもちなみに部員だった人は俺以外にはいませんでしたけどねw みんなサッカー部とか演劇部とかそういう笑える展開。でもかなりよかった。
After the practice, we had a lunch together.
We took our teacher with us and had a lunch. We stayed at restaurant for more than 3 hrs!!!
んで結局夜の練習の時間になってしまったので、
帰るのも時間がなくなり、そのまま練習に突入しましたー。
かなり疲れた。
夜はもうクタクタでした。
2日目>>>
今日は一緒に練習にいってる連中がバドミントンのミックスの大会!
ってことで、大会の応援に朝から早く起きて頑張っていってきました。
でもalmost every team sadly could not win the game in morning, だから午後はもう結構暇。しかしまだ残ってるやつもいたし、あいてるコートで練習しました。
友達のお母さんと一緒に、大会に出ていた高校生をナンパw
いきなり声をかけて、どこの高校かーとか、そんなことをいろいろききだしましたw
大会に出なかった組は練習がしたい、ってことで、
夜の練習にもいってきました。
ここまでバドミントンぶっ続けw
9時半まで練習してから、10時から飲み会にいきましたー。
久し振りにこのメンツで酒をのんだのが楽しくて、
かなりいい気分!
But there was a couple whose relationship wasnt so good...
まあ若いって素晴らしいね、って思ってました(爆)
この涙がいつか、
おれの将来のこやしとなって、
いつか俺に幸せをもたらしてくれると願おう。]]>say thank youhttp://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9107943/2008-06-24T23:23:00+09:002008-06-24T23:26:57+09:002008-06-24T23:24:20+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
People taking buses are mostly those who are working at companies. I am pretty sure that they say "thank you" to their customers. I am pretty sure that they say "thank you" to their bosses. However, I want them to think what "thank you" really means.
"Thank you" must be a phrase we use when we feel kindness of other people or get services which make us happy. In this sense, isnt is a timing to say "thank you" when we take a bus?
Lets think what if we do not have bus services. For me, it takes about 25 min on foot to go to the nearest station from my home. For other people, this would be the same situation. Summer is coming soon, so we would get sweat if we walk to the station. On the other hand, thanks to bus services, we dont need to walk or get sweat, and we can even shorten the time from home to the station.
Now, I would like again to raise this question; "Isnt it the timing to say "thank you" when we use bus services?
I am trying my best to say "thank you" everytime I use the bus. I am very young, but I want other people to see me saying "thank you" so that they would get influenced by me and say "thank you" next time. This small activity is really small thing, but I believe that I can change some people around me. We can do it!!!
So, thank you!!!]]>Reading a bookhttp://masaharu84.exblog.jp/9036424/2008-06-13T01:13:12+09:002008-06-13T01:04:08+09:002008-06-13T01:04:08+09:00canadian_dreamingDiary
The book is about 'how people should live', so this is very much like philosophical books. However, what makes it difference is that this book has two main characters who lead the story; this is half philosophical and half story. And that is why I am reading this.
This book is very special for me.
I think this book changes me.
I dont know, but I feel so.
"Just feeling or thinking is nothing.
And I need to take action if I want to change something."
This book is not something which tells me something new.
Every ideas in this book are something I have ever seen before either in books or by people around. But it is still very exciting book for some reason. I think I can understand why I like it, when I finish reading this.